Its just a season.

Today my result for final semester of M.A Economics was declared. Well I am very satisfied with my result and i cried tears of joy when i saw my result. I am overwhelmed with joy and that's not just because I passed my exam but because it reminds of me of so many incidents. 

I remember the days when i was looking for a college to enroll myself in after my graduation for my post graduation. I tried in few other colleges but couldn't get through and that did discourage me but I didn't give up. I kept trying and finally got a call from the college I did my MA from and this college was in a city I had never been to before. I knew no one in that city but I didn't want that to stop myself from joining the college so I decided to move to the unknown city. I traveled to this city for the first time on my own. All by myself I reached the city and contacted a friend and moved in to a paying guest house with her. I had no idea that I would be spending my two years in the city in the same paying guest house but well I did. My roommates changed each year because my first year's room mates passed out the year I reached my second year. I had to travel 15 minutes by auto to my college from my hostel. I have always stayed away from home and so being away from home was never an issue for me but being in city full of strangers was. There were times when I felt very lonely and cried few drops of tear but I kept encouraging myself to be strong. At times I survived with very minimum amount of cash and there were times when I had to control my hunger just to save my money for travel (especially by the end of the month) because I never wanted to miss my class by not being able to pay for my travel. I somehow completed my first year and by the time I reached my second year I had really good friends and then i didn't even realize how time started flying by. 

We were bunch of crazy people always making plans but not always fulfilling them, we had lots of fun together. We (around eleven or twelve of us) would suddenly enter one of our friends' house and would not come out without a proper meal. All of my friends' moms were very loving and hard working women who never for once failed to provide us with great meal. I really admire moms for that, I hope I will be such a mom someday.   I remember the exam times when we would gather in one of our friends house (because in our hostel boys were not allowed) and then sit for group study.

Our group study would be more of eating and chatting but of course we did study too. There were times when we would plan mass bunk from class and if someone would attend class that day we would keep nagging on them till they feel really guilty (really childish I know but that's how we were). 

Well I must say that I found awesome friends in this city that was stranger to me once. Of course we argued and misunderstood each other at times but that did not rule out the fact that we were friends. If I have to go into detail it would to be way too long but my motive here is to keep it short and to bring out the fact that life comes alive when we go ahead and start living irrespective of the situation and circumstances. This is just a part of my life, I am sure each one has their own story of how things fell into place as they moved along the way. 

Life will not always come in a complete package with everything prefixed, we have to take every bit, fix it and make it the way we want it to be. Life will never be perfect but its up to us to make it beautiful or ugly. Don't give any one or any situation the right to rule over your life, its your life and only you know how you want it so make the best of it. If you feel like all the odds are against you and life is not fair just remember that its just a season that will pass by and a new season will be here soon. Till then just make the best out of today and live the best life possible today. When the new season arrives you definitely want something good to look back to. You are making memories each day so why make bad memories when you have equal option to make the good ones. Its just a matter of perception, choice and time. 

Keep the right perception, make the right choices and be patient when the new season is on its way. Live this moment you have because whether you realize it or not, this is best gift you have been given, how you handle your present will to large extend determine your future. 

Whatever difficulties you are going through today just remember that its not here to stay, its just a season that will pass by so keep up a good attitude, put on your beautiful smile and don't stop living. Life is too short to waste on any matter that is keeping you from living the best life. You deserve to be happy and live to the fullest so don't compromise for anything less. Be more grateful and less critical, then see your life  being transformed. 

All the best for the best life you will be living.  Your Best Days are not far off, prepare yourself well. God bless you.

Loads of love,

Deborah. <3

your life depends so much on your perception

RISE ABOVE YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES: 

Life is so much more than your circumstances

“People are always blaming circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get ahead in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can’t find them, make them.”    

                    -George Bernard Shaw

I remember the day when I walked out for school for the first time at the age of three and half. There was no one to drop me till the campus but I followed some elder kids till school. When I reached the school I was really confused because the reality of school was beyond my imagination. I had imagined school to be a big campus where everyone would sit around playing and enjoying but there were buildings (the buildings when I think today were not that tall but that time those were like multi story buildings ) inside which there were so many classes. I had no idea where I was suppose to sit so I randomly chose a class and sat, however, later I was sent to my class. 

In my country kids are not admitted in the government schools before the age of six and private schools are expensive but I was really desperate to go school that I somehow managed to be there at the age of three and half. When I think of that today, I have to say that God's favor was upon me even then. I somehow joined the school staying away from parents at that age ( I had the spirit to fight with my circumstances even at that age) but it was definitely not easy at all. I cried, laughed, stumbled, fell and stood back up and walked on my own. I had no one to cry with and never had any options, had to accept whatever came along the way. I had no option to choose what I wanted to eat, wear, play etc. So I learned to accept whatever I was provided with and was still grateful for all those and still am today. I had no one to turn to when I wanted a shoulder to lean on and cry. Overall I grew up on my own without holding anyone's finger from the age of three and half. My parents appreciate me for never being demanding as a kid but that was because I had to learn to be that way. I stayed away from my parents since I came to my senses and of course others would not tolerate my childish behaviors so the only option I was left with was to act mature as soon as possible. I don't want to go into detail because it somehow still hurts me when I think of all those. I somehow got through that phase of my life and I thought the most bitter part of my life was over and that I had climbed the highest mountain.

   I was absolutely wrong because so many things happened one after another in my life along the way. The thing is I had to understand life is a series of all these ups and downs. The bitter incidences in my life have always helped me grow more than the good ones. After every storm I find myself at a higher level than the previous level. If through good circumstances I have climbed one step higher, the storms in my life have taken me ten steps higher. Its true that when I think of those dark phases of my life I can feel some kind of pain in some corner of my heart but at the same time I am grateful to God for letting those dark phases be a part of life because without those phases I would not have been able to learn as much as I have been able to till date.

 At times I of course felt like God was so very ignorant toward me but I have to admit the fact that 'His grace was always enough for me to get through' and I always made to the next level. I am glad that I never gave in but chose to rise above my circumstances. My battle is not over yet and it will continue as long as I am breathing but one thing I am very sure and confident about is that God will always be my refuge and I will get through rising higher and higher irrespective of the circumstances.

I have no complains, no regrets and no grudges but instead I am very grateful to all those who made the journey of my life interesting by making it difficult for me. If everything would have turned out the way I wanted, I guess I would have never learned what I have learned. Whatever I have learned along the way so far and whatever I will be learning along the way further are and will be my greatest wealth or asset. Every bad circumstances and every difficult people promoted me to a higher level and helped me gain extra favor in God's sight. What can be a greater and better gift than that! I have the strength to smile and hope even in the darkest phase of my life. I am confident that I am fully prepared for whatever lies ahead because I have the favor of the Almighty.

I want to encourage all those  who are in the midst of any kind of storm. You are not alone and if you are willing you can rise very high. Its up to you to decide whether you are gonna let your circumstances take you down or higher than you could ever imagine. Make a decision today whether you want to become the victim or the VICTOR. Whatever you decide will define your life so make sure you make a the right decision.

REMEMBER ITS JUST A TEST.

Some of my favorite Quotes

'A little more persistence, a little more effort, and what seemed hopeless failure may turn to glorious success.'   By Elbert Hubbard

“Nothing could be worse than the fear that one had given up too soon, and left one unexpended effort that might have saved the world.” By Jane Addams

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.”  By Confucius

“Never let your head hang down. Never give up or sit down and grieve. Find another way.”             

 By Satchel Paige

“You just can’t beat the person who won’t give up.”  By Babe Ruth

“The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

by Rocky Balboa

My best wishes and love to everyone. You haven't lost the battle as long as you have the spirit to fight. 

ALL THE BEST.

Loads of love Deborah

Introduction

On this journey of life I know I am going to walk through the sunshine, storm, rain and rainbow but whatever the journey be I am never going to give up living beautiful.
This blog is to remind myself and all the those who read my posts that we all mess up at times in this journey and it is going to be difficult at times but that does not mean we are to give up or stop living the best life.
Every time we are tempted to give up, we got to remind our-self that the best is yet to come .
Let's stay strong and live beautiful. 

loads of love

Deborah <3